Update

Currently reading Rich Dad, Poor Dad by Robert T. Kiyosaki. This book would be the second challenging book I ever read, the challenging book I ever read and study is my Pre-U Chemistry Text Book :P 

Rich dad strike me at the first few pages I read once I got this book downloaded. It makes me realized there were seriously NO education about financial establishment taught in school, no matter it is in primary school or secondary school or Pre-U like me now. I'm so surprised that this book actually straight to the point answering about why is it nowadays so many youngsters are getting into financial problem such as credit cards overload and being part of the "monthly pocket clear".

I had stopped reading this book for 2-3 days because I thought I have no interest on that and it was too challenging for me. I have no interest to know about finance since in my mind, I am just a poor kid. I live by my mum's pension. I should already be grateful of what I have and stop asking for more. That was my mindset and to me, there is no financial security. When I got a huge amount of money, I don't know how to use it wisely and end up when the money is gone, I can't figure where did I used those money. 

In between of those days, I kept thinking of a question, "When will you start to live a life that meant to be yours?" You're now living a life for God's sake, for the church, for your family, what about yourself and your future?? Don't you want a life that financial security would be present in it? For all those questions, my answers were "Yeah, I want a life that meant to be mine, balancing between the reality and spiritually (Although I know can't serve both well, I still want to give a try) and I want financial security in my life now on." Those days can be said as the most suffered days I had. I am a passive and laid back person. I wait things to happen. I let environment to shape and allow life to push around and give up. I am that kind of person. Asking myself those questions are actually the other way round of my personality and whom I used to be.

Once I got my answers, I stop wandering and start reading. I don't care even if I am in church reading that book. This is my life and I know my rights. People saw me reading, they keep quiet and walk away and I thank God for they do so. I spent most of my time reading and thinking of what I have read. I want to get rich not by showing off how big is my house or my car but get rich in getting money by make it works for me. I am aiming for a guitar that is going to cost me around RM 300 and am thinking how to get those money. Sometimes reading need to put into practical. 

I am at the beginning of lesson 2 last 7 pages of Lesson 1. I can't wait to finish it but I rather I fully understand and think about it, digest it well than rush and remember nothing about it. However, on the first lesson, I already realized I can make a change at the beginning of this year if I have already read this book. I quit my job as a kindergarten teacher because I think my principal is the problem who makes me feel pressure and also because of low pay. I was experiencing what most of the workers would experience when they are working and I gave up to fight back. As life pushed me to the corner, I gave up and quit the job and entered into Pre-U that I never thought of I will be in today. If I have read this book early, probably now I'm a in training kindergarten teacher having Rm 600+ pay per month and with some kindy children for tuition. 

Well, life still goes on. I won't let life push me up the corner and give up this time. I failed in my Chemistry and got cursed to hang on the tree and at the moment until the day before I read this book, I have a thought of giving up to be a Science student. I think of quitting just as the reaction I have when I start complaining. However, now, I am NOT going to quit, I will work hard and improve my result. Time is my money and spending time to study is my investment, and the result of my study will be the "money" I have in future. Rich dad had just on a light bulb in my mind that my age and time that I have now is my money - not real money la, and I should use them wisely to invest into different areas such as studies and music skills for now. 

I know it will be really tough to put myself into schedule that I planned to aim for good result and early revision next year. However, I will always remember Nick Vujicic. Without limbs and legs, he motivated and touched thousands lives. I, Jacklyn, with limbs and legs and just lack of some motivation will also able to do great things and be self motivating one day. 

After such a long story about the book I read and thoughts I have, lets have something different here. I am going to have a year of resting and family for this Christmas season. I have been busy busy busy for every Christmas, neglected my family and relatives and never got a chance to spend some time with them to talk about Jesus Christ. I am not going to evangelize to them, I will just asking them questions to triggered them to think about Christmas day. One's thought shape his life. Let their thoughts be the one who tell them and change them. 

Attended SIC Christmas Celebration last night, played with Irwinder's Iphone, non-stop praising the formation of Calvary Church's worship team. Their worship team are formed by YOUTH. SBC worship team - MID ADULTS. So, what's the next sentence? Use the thing between your 2 ears to find out. 

I just prayed for a Christmas Present that I think it is too early for me but I still want to pray about it and hope so I will get it. And yeah, I used "pray" to this matter means I am being passive and for some personal reason, I can't be aggressive to this :P