Miracle and God's grace

Do you believe in miracle? I personally do.
It has to related to things that happened yesterday.

Yesterday was the worst day ever for my life in this year. The name list is out for those who can become a pengawas or overseer in the school. For your information, I am lower six now, Pre U. In Malaysia's Education System, for those who wants to further study to Local Universities need to have really good academic and co-curriculum performance. I have make known of this when I step my feet into this school. So, I worked hard to get some post in my class, my school, my co-curriculum groups. I managed to get assistant class monitor and now, this story about miracle and God's grace starts.

I have volunteered myself to be an overseer when the teacher was asking in the class and during that time, in my class, no one but me want to be overseer. After that, 2 of my subject teachers told me they nominated me to be overseer as well. I was really happy and I thank them for that as they had encouraged me so much to be a better student. Because of that, I kept myself disciplined and always remind myself, you want to stand on high ground, you need be hardworking and smart enough in playing psychology tricks. My mum is a smart lady and she has reputation among her friends and our neighborhood and the most best thing is she can make friends easily. She is much more sociable than me and she is good in playing around with psychology tricks and she was a brilliant businesswoman. She is my motivation that keeps me moving on and on so that I can give her a better life in future. I started to learn from my mum about all her skills in making friends and being sociable since I was 15 and realized I can easily make friends with those who are elder than but not those who same age with me. Most probably, my thinking pathway is different from them. I am serious with my life and everything I do. I believe some people have the same thinking pathway like me but it is really least.

I waited for around 3 weeks and name list was out yesterday and I am NOT on the LIST! I just collapsed in my Biology class. I stunned and my mind flew away. Keep on asking "Why why why?! Why I am not on the list?!" It was my worst day ever. I was sick and having flu and every virus growing in my body making me dizzy and sleepy. I almost cried when I met Mr Cheen whom is the head of overseer teachers. He is a friend of me, not so close but I am much more closer with his wife as she used encouraged me when I was in low spirit. I talked to him softly, asking why I am not chosen. He said he doesn't know why. He said he just received names from Madam Anitha. He advised me not to be frustrated and keep on doing my best job for myself and for the Lord. I was really comforted by that. However, I was still sad.

Just before I go home, I managed to met Madam Anitha and asked her why I am not on the list. She told it was the decision among the teachers. That really breaks my heart when I hear that. I am wondering are those teachers just fooling me about nominated me? It don't seems this way. It must be something wrong. Madam Anitha just said she will try her best to see what she can do for me. I don't expect anything when I heard this kind reply. I have heard this for many times when I go for interview for job.

Beside of sad, I was burning in the fire of anger because I just can't tolerate with those faker who shouted like ghost in the class making sound pollution that she doesn't want to be an overseer and bugging her friends for that. That's so disgusting! We are all 18. Can't she just have some maturity in her mind and settle the problem by herself? Anyway, last night was a bad night. I got nose bleeding when I kept on running my nose. However, the best thing always come at last.

I back to school today. She is not talking to me anymore. Most probably someone told her about I am naming her as "Pikachoo!" Well, I am mean and I am a bad girl in some way. I don't really care since I prefer to be alone when it needs to be alone and in group when it is necessary. During recess time, I saw my friends were going to duty. I felt happy for them even though I don't get chosen. When I was walking to where I usually group with my friends, Mr Cheen called me and told me to see him afterward. I was wondering what is going on this time? Am I getting a chance? I didn't went to see him straightaway instead, I spent some times with my friends as I knew there is a girl just came to my group 2 days ago after she has see the truth of her group of friends and she decided to come and join us. So, I talked to her and try my best to take care of her. That's what a friend's function, taking care and helping them.

I went into the staff room to see Mr Cheen and he told me that I am giving a chance to try, for 3 months. After 3 months, they will decide again whether who will truly be the overseer in school. See!! That's the most miracle part! I have already put this down and told myself "never mind. You will still be successful and active in school as an assistance class monitor." But this just pop out to me and I am so happy today even though I am still sick! This is truly the God's grace!! I thank God for this and everything even my sickness now. I promised myself and my mum that I will a good student, passing up my homework on time and I will make my mum meeting lots of teacher when she goes for my graduation ceremony and each one of them will give compliment to her that she has successfully brought me up as a good daughter.

I really look forward to that day :)
Some lil dirty secret: "Pikachoo" looked unpleasant when she sees me attended the overseer orientation just now. That just make feel...so well..so good..at least she has a lesson in her mind that don't overdo what shouldn't be done even though you are daughter to my ex principal and my aunt's friend :P