Tomorrow will be the day I leave my home for 5 days to BCCM to serve as a volunteer in the coming Life Game. It is time for me to examine my heart. What is the purpose I called Amos that night to offer myself to help? What I should prepare myself for? I wasn’t used to this but I know I have to do this. To make sure the direction of my heart.
I have joined recovery course for 4 weeks if I am not mistaken. For the first 2 weeks, it was hurt!!! Really really hurt! Everything just flashed out like a unstoppable video clip and keep repeating. Slowly, thru prayer, thru putting my trust to God that he is the only one who can provide me the feeling of accepting, giving me values and feeling of belongings. For now, whenever anything happen that’s going to make me feel bad, the first thing I do is I prayed to God. I reaffirm myself that God is the only one provider of my need but not others. That makes me building more faith in God.
I believe God planned everything in my life and that’s purpose for every decision that God allowed them to happen in my life. I used to believe in this so much when I was a young Christian and as year goes by, my faith to God become a habit but not a practice. It took me to keep praying and praying again and again to have this faith back. Instead of just praying, I want to serve as well. I want to apply what Pastor Amos had preached today. SERVE SERVE SERVE! even to those who hurt me before, who disappointed me.
Something great happened after the sermon is Andreas talked back to me ;) We discuss about the audition for the musician intake by music department. I am glad that we talked again and this is good starting. Thank God for that!
I will serve and cooperate with the Life Impact Team as well as love my neighbour as myself ;)
Good night everyone!
AMEN!!! BIG AMEN!!!!! I am so glad and relieved to read this post after so many previous posts... HAHAHA. Yes, yes, I am still following you. Sorry been so busy, haven't emailed you much. :) But I still think of you and pray for you. Love you, my mui-mui. May God bless your life with the fruits of your service.
回覆刪除Hey, Grace :)I am so glad to see you leave some word on my blog again :D I've back to God now! Thank you so much for keep praying for me all the time :)
回覆刪除You know what, I am so excited now because just 1.30 hours left, I will have lunch with Amos and step into the Life Game camp ground! That brings me a lot of memories when I first joined LG and I cried so many time when playing that. Because life is tough without God.
I realized it is easy to have faith in God when we have child's heart. We trust God just as how a child trush his mother. Instead if we trust God based on our knowledge, that will be so tough.
;) See you after 5 days and congratulation for no longer being a P driver :D