Oh TOO BAD

Today suppose to be my small group, Dandelion retreat. I really wish to join that I couldn't due to my phone was completely dyfunction last night and I didn't realized. Second was because I have to go back to school tomorrow and I know my health status that I need some more rest.

Spent another day at home. Reading. Planning. Thinking. Praying. Eating. Playing. Suffering now. I wanna finish my reading on Harry Potter and the Order of Phoenix by today but I was distracted :P I also spent some time on planning and think about my holiday. Should I go for work or study at home or be volunteer in church? At last, I choose to work at my nanny's place, teaching little kids to read and write. I think mostly just read and teach them how to recognize words and sort of it. I will work for 5 days a week, 250 bucks a month. Not too bad, right? I can still do my own study when I am teaching them. 

Spent time to pray as well. Really miserable recently. A lot of thoughts and words spoken out and done without the guidance of the Holy Spirit. I can also see that God didn't call for the Hannah Training Camp. I am not sad for that but I continue to pray with expectation that the Lord will call me one day. I know the Lord sees a bigger picture than everyone around me does, including myself. So, to avoid wasting time, I think it is best to obey the Lord with humbleness.

I ate quite a lot of times today. The doctor told me to eat slowly and eat at a fixed interval. I was practicing and that wouldn't be too hard. Maybe today I was too bored and have no way to express myself, I ate a lot and ate really fast, based on what my mum observed. I also ate around 5 big prawns today without realizing my illness. I have intestinal infection, seafood like prawns and crabs should be avoided but I took prawn today. So, I am having intestinal irritation now. Have really bad stomachache when I bubu and feel like puke after I bubu. I have retake my medicine again, argh! Hate the pills!

My mum is going for Optic Specialist tomorrow. She has some problem on her eyesight, seeing stuff in double shadows when the light is too strong and directed to her eyes. I guess she had sensitive eyes. It is much more better to check up by a specialist and to really know how to cure that. I will be going with her too because the specialist will be an Indian lady if I am not mistakenly guess from her name and my mum needs someone to speak out of her situation in English. I know my mum always been proud of my ability in learning languages and shown really good result in that and I am glad too I can help my mum with the talents God placed in my life.

I will have to explain to the teacher tomorrow. I hope she will let me go, if she doesn't allow, I will still have to go, without my report card. I used think of the importance of family and study, with lots of struggling, I put family first. So, no matter how or what happened tomorrow, I will still have to leave before 9am. Really sorry to my group mates that I won't be around for the Ecology Project tomorrow. 

So, in conclusion, I am having a "Oh-NOT TOO BAD" day  but because of my fault, taken in food that I shouldn't take, I have make myself today a "Oh-TOO BAD" day. Stomach irritation is bad :( I shall pray that the Lord will heal me now.