God’s faithfulness

I want to talk about God’s faithfulness today. Recently, I encountered with a lot of trials because of a decision I have made 10 days ago. I have made a decision that I want to do something GREAT for the Lord. I want to go for MISSION, go to the end of the world to tell the world about His GREAT LOVE, how PRECIOUS we’re in His sight and how SPECIAL the Lord had made our identities in Him.

I was worried about my family and I felt so hard to leave my family. I kept focus on my role in my family and ignored God’s role in my family. As I continued to pray and seek for people’ advices, I realized when I focus more to God, my worries gone. I am not running away from the fact that my family needed but I trust the Lord will take care of my mum and by His will, He will send someone to take care of her when I am away for mission. If you ask me “How come you can just believe and move on?”, I will tell you “Because I have seen the love of God to me and how serious He deal with me. He deal with me by sending Jesus to die on the cross for me. My life is purchased by God and when I willing to give my life to Him, He will be responsible to me.”

Flash back to 10.09.2010. That was the day I did my prayer and once again come back to God. 40 days passed. God have done a great thing in me! He changed me from the inside out. The speedy transformation is scary and full with power. I once was asking the Lord, “How can this be? Within few weeks, You have make me a brand new people, give me new heart. Not only I notice my changes, as well as people. Lord, How can this be?” When I thought of it deeper, I realized God planned everything in sequence. First, He affirmed me again and again about His great love in Christ for me. I really meant, AGAIN and AGAIN. EVERYDAY! Slowly, God asked me back to serving His people in His ministries. I was struggling and I said to the Lord, “ I am a failure and people wouldn’t accept me anymore. I have no talent at all, what I can serve You? Give me a vision and guide me through really back to the church and start to serve in Your timing.” But the Lord done marvellous things. He opened my eyes and help me to see more of people’s need rather than my ability. I am back to the ministries that I used to be in, Sound System and LCD. Sooner, the Lord guide me to another ministry, playing keyboard in worship department. I was real amazed by how God led just because of my prayer. In this, I have learned that “The Lord didn’t create us to see our limitations and being sad about it. Instead, He created us to overcome our limitations by relay on Him and come close to Him everyday.”

I used to pray to the Lord said “Although I have nothing to give but my life, I still want to do something great for you.” At 10.10.2010, I visited Hannah. God touched my heart and I am alerted about that and started to pray for vision. Since that day, it is another new chapter in my life. I experienced loneliness that I never had before. I experienced the burning of worries and sorrows. Feeling like the end of the world. I seek for comfort from the Lord. I couldn’t remember how many nights I fall asleep in my prayer with tears. Really hard time for me but the Lord walks with me. This circumstances that I face helps me rely more on God’s guidance and strength.

God is faithful and He never fails me. I believe the rest of my life under His wings, I will be safe :D