One Step One Footprint

It has been 2 weeks I didn’t update myself on my blog. Looking back to these 14 days, I realized I have blessing to count on each day. God is faithful and He never fails me when I am weak and weary. After trembled for countless time, I really afraid that I would trembled again after 2-3 weeks. It seems like I have overlook God’s strength and His faithfulness to me. I always believe practice make perfect and now I believe too, when I really willing to withdraw from my life driving centre and extol God to be the King of my life, it will become a habit too.

Every spiritually practice takes time and patience and humbleness to come close to God to be accomplish. When God is with me, what else do I afraid of? What else can separate me from Him? For it is written in Romans 8:38-39 “ For I convinced that neither death nor life, neither angels nor demons, neither present nor future, nor any power, neither depth nor height, nor any creation of this world able to separate us from the Love of God that is in Christ Jesus our Lord.” What a affirmative message from God! I do admit we are facing spiritual warfare everyday, even now, when I am writing on blog, Satan is still watching over me, seeking for the timing where I started to sinned against God.

I read back my previous post on 18th September. I saw how I struggled as God wants me to make right with people and every wrongs I have done. I thought it would be really hard, people would reject me, people would mock on me and bla bla bla. Things weren’t going that way and everything were gone smoothly with God’s guidance and blessings. I am building back my relationship with people around me. Not in a way that I have to please them but to keep them in my prayer and continue to spend time with them. I know I can’t please everyone but God. Sometimes, I even failed to please God (In my own thought, I think that way, sometimes.) I still sinned even I walk with God. I still get really emotional even I walk with God. I still say harsh words even I walk with God. However, I do see the frequency is going down and down. Now I understand what Amos meant by “Sin less by uphold everything to God.” When I am serious to God, God is serious with me too. When I seriously uphold my life to Him everyday, keep this cycle repeat and repeating, I saw changes in my life and different perspectives I have on things that I always see.

I still encounter failure today but I am not eating alive by regret. I failed today, I prayed to God, asked for forgiveness and wisdom and guidance to try again tomorrow. Many people would think Christian never fail or Christian never sin once they are with God. I used to think that way but I realized God’s standard is much too high for me to achieve. Only by the grace of God, I can be accepted by Him. I am saved by His Grace but not my good deeds. One thing I realized changed in my life is, I am getting “round” when I am communicate with others and I would put people first in everything I have. That’s a good thing to me and I am going to glorify God with this. Before this, I never talk to my friends about my faith in Christ, I never tell them event in my church, I never voice up to Christian when I see them sinning publicly. I was a coward, conclusion. Now, I will go and tell my friends about how God blessed me even I am a prodigy daughter, introducing them events in church and invite them to come, talk to those I saw they are hurting privately to comfort and affirm them (if they are Christian) and pray for them (if they are non Christian and would follow up with Gospel sharing). I really see changes in my life, a BIG change!

Doing things step by step is better to rush all in with my own timing but not God.

I have made a new friend too. We actually knew each other but I never really reveal to him who I am. Last night, we really talked about that and yeah, I confessed to him and now, he is another new friend in my msn :) He is nice guy though (I am not writing this because I know you’re reading but because that’s a truth :P) and really kind man. Should call him man because he is elder than for some years. Hope God really works in his life whereby he can really find something that he wanted to seek for – his life purpose.

The psalmist said in Psalm 89:2 “ I know that your love last for all time, that your faithfulness as permanent as the sky.” With this assurance, even though the sky changed to be grey or dark or your life is in a huge storm now but bear in mind, God’s faithfulness still remain :)